Thursday, May 24, 2012

God's Perfect Timing...

God’s perfect timing…
I have been studying Baby Hunger (an amazing book by Beth Forbus) on and off for a while now.  Today, I started reading Zacharias & Elizabeth’s story again.  This story is a perfect example of how God does things in His perfect time.  Sometimes, that concept is *SO hard for me to grasp.  We have been through so much - first cancer, and for the past two and a half years, infertility.  I’m tired of waiting..I am READY.

Zacharias and Elizabeth were amazing people.  Always doing things according to God’s will, and living the life that a Christian couple should live.  They were very deserving, outstanding people.  The only thing wrong with Zacharias and Elizabeth was the thing that has proven to be a hurdle for so many of us: they could not conceive.  We can all mostly relate to this.  We are good people.  We live our lives the right way.  We would make wonderful parents, raise our children in church, provide a loving and stable household for our children – yet we have been through relentless cycles, needle pokes, and negative tests.  Why is it fair that the couple that is addicted to drugs, who fights constantly, and do so many un-Godly things, can bring home children, yet we can’t? Why can the 15 year old girl, who has just began living herself, get pregnant, but I can’t?  I know I’m not alone..I’m not the only person who has felt this way. 
Beth Forbus writes, “You may have felt that God is punishing you for some wrong you have committed, or perhaps punishing your spouse…”  I, personally, have had that exact same sentence run through my head.  She then writes “God had a purpose and a plan for this couple (Zacharias & Elizabeth) and for their child.  He had an appointed time for this child to be born.  This child was a child of purpose...”  God knew that their child was destined to be someone special.  Jeremiah 1:5 says, ““Before I formed you in the womb I knew[a] you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”  Had God not made Elizabeth barren, and then filled her womb in that particular time in her life, perhaps they would have not borne John the Baptist! 
So, you see, maybe God IS waiting on the perfect time to fill your womb.  He already knows which child is destined to be YOUR child.  He already knows your perfect match.  Whether it be through adoption or pregnancy, God already has MY child picked for me.  I just have to learn to wait for His timing. 
   

2 comments:

  1. you guys are always in my thoughts. <3

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  2. This was so encouraging! I am going through the same thing. I have the same thoughts more often than not. I have seen so many teenage girls who get pregnant, some who have abortions, and wonder why not me? I have 3 sisters. Since the desire became so strong in my heart to conceive and begin starting a family with my husband, one sister got pregnant and delivered her baby boy. He is now 16 months. Another sister got pregnant and delivered her baby girl. She is now 10 and a half months. She also has a 2 and a half year old daughter. We just recently found out that same sister is pregnant with her third child. She is 31 and I am 23 but I have wanted to conceive since I got married at 21. This sister only tried one time. I was so crushed when I found out she is pregnant...again. I have had thoughts like...am I not as loved? Why her and not me too? Why is my desire so strong yet I am just sitting by the sidelines and watching these people get pregnant? Why am I having to suffer? Why did she only have to try one time to conceive her third child and I am still waiting? I have had so many thoughts and wonders that I can't even type them out. It just hurts. But reading this really helped me. My family tells me it is going to happen for me. It is all in God's timing. God hears my prayers. God wants to give me children and is going to. I really do believe that...but with the pain and waiting comes doubt. I know it was meant for me to read this because this morning, I have been so down and discouraged about getting pregnant. I hadn't thought about the fact that it isn't only His timing for my husband and I, but also for the children. He has a plan for them as well and they will be born according to His plan for my husband and I.....and His plan for our children. I just want to thank you for posting this. The waiting is always hard, no matter what someone is waiting for, but I have considered asking God to take away some desire until it is time for us to conceive..just so it doesn't hurt so bad. I know it is going to happen for us...the waiting just hurts. You really encouraged me.

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