In all of the hectic - ness of the holidays and the new year, I haven't had a chance to have one of those bad days......until today..I am in freak out mode...I found out yesterday that Compassionate Care only covered the Gonal Pens...and I will still have to buy the Progesterone and Menopur (if we need Menopur, we won't know until my blood work) ...the Progesterone isn't that bad, but the Menopur they said would be around 90 a vial and I would need roughly 10 vials...yikes...We have been fortunate...the portion of the meds that we DID receive was about 2400.00 worth of free meds...Now I am worrying about the shots, my ovaries responding, the eggs being mature and fertilising...the whole process working, and if it doesn't how will we ever afford to do it again? ...I know...I need to calm down and not be stressed...but think about getting stuck with a needle every day possibly two times a day for an undetermined amount of weeks and think about spending an undefined amount of money on something that may or may not work and the risks associated with the whole process, and tell me if you are stressed or not....I KNOW that the benefits very much outweigh the risks..but I am so scared...I'm scared of everything...I'm scared of never becoming a mother...God, I am so scared....
I know that feeling & it is so scary. I promise to keep you in my prayers <3
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