Ramblings and Progress...

I don't have anything particular to blog about today....So this will just be a ramble...This week has pretty much flown by... Between work and all of the household chores that have to be done AFTER work, I don't get much time to just relax...Yesterday was my day off for the week.  I INTENDED to clean my house really well and get some stuff done while the hubs was working...Instead, I slept until 10:30 and spent most of the day on the couch with a headache...ugh...what a day off!  If you read my post earlier this week, my cousin's little baby passed away in utero.  His mommy was almost 7 months along.  There was no heartbeat Sunday, and the only thing the doctors could come up with was that his cord may have been around his neck.  They induced her Monday and she never progressed past 1 cm. So, the induced her again Tuesday morning, and she had him quickly.  He weighed almost 3 lbs and was perfect.  But, the cord wasn't around his neck, so they don't really know what caused this horrible thing to happen.  There will be a visitation tonight and funeral tomorrow night for the baby.  For some reason that we will never understand, God wanted baby Jacob to be with him in heaven instead of here on earth with his mommy and daddy...RIP Baby Jacob Andrew.....

Speaking of babies ( which I am now TERRIFIED of pregnancy) next month was supposed to be the big month.  But we just haven't raised enough money I don't think.  I can't think of ways to raise money, ways to ask people to donate..I tried the little donation box thingy on here, but I fear that some people may have thought it irrational to try to raise money to have a baby.  I thank those of you who did donate, because every bit helps...trust me...but I am hoping to find ways to maybe do fundraising on here that people would be interested in, and I just can't think of anything.  I spoke to the nurse 2 weeks ago, and she said that we could probably be ready to start my next menstrual cycle.  So far, I have most of my blood work complete, and I have had a Sonohysterogram. She said I would need a day 3 ultrasound and blood work to check my ovarian reserve also, but that we could do that on the next cycle too.  The problem is, I got a 1300.00 bill from the SHG that insurance was supposed to cover 600.00 of and denied it....So I am currently fighting with them, with no word FROM them in 3 weeks.  I also know that the day 3 ultrasound + blood work will cost me an additional 600.00 (roughly).  That PLUS the 10 grand that I have to pay to get started (13 if I don't get the grand for medication).  So as you can see, I am definitely having the money problems right now...  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated????