Money, Life, Misery

I am so desperate...I have had nothing but a headache for the past month...I'm not naive..I know there are so many costs associated with IVF...I'm so close but so far away and it devastates me...I want to be pregnant...Scratch that.. I need to be pregnant...I am ready to start my family... It's not fair that I can't (forgive me if this is vulgar) sleep with my husband and start a family like everyone else.  It's not fair that I have to pray and cry and stress to the point my eyeballs want to pop out over how I am going to pay for IVF...Keep postponing because I can't come up with the money...Scrape and scrounge PENNIES to try to come up with the money for UNEXPECTED costs associated with IVF...I want to be a mother so bad, but sometimes I just want to give up and be happy again, but then I know that I will never be happy until I am a mother and am able to give my husband a child.  Why can't some rich stranger decide that we are important and deserving enough to have a child and just donate us the money? Why can't we just win the lottery??? Why aren't there any ways to raise money and why aren't there any foundations out there willing to help cancer survivors become parents??? Why did this happen to us? ........