Thank You and a Heavy Heart ......

First of all, I want to say thank you to the people that have started following my blog.  It makes me feel good, because the whole point in me starting this blog was to be able to talk with people about things that I don't speak with friends and family about.  Not a single friend knows that I blog about our infertility except Kandice, who is a new friend that I am really excited about!  So it makes me feel good to know that someone is listening and thinking about us.  Not a whole lot of people know about what we are going through except for family and a few co - workers. 

Moving on, I write with a heavy heart today.  A good friend / co-worker of mine is losing her daddy.  He raised her and she has always been some what of a daddy's girl.  She is 20, and doesn't really have her real mother in her life, but has had a step mother for maybe 5ish years or so that has been like a mother to her. Her daddy is a wonderful man.  No matter what you ask anyone that knows him about him, they always sing his praises.  He has been battling cancer for over 2 years, trying different type's of chemotherapy and experimental drugs.  In the almost 2 years I have known her, he has underwent several major surgeries, 2 including removal of a kidney due to tumors, and the removal of a tumor on his spine, which was an 8 hour surgery.  Throughout everything, he has never lost his faith.  He has never stopped believing in God, or stated that he is angry with God for taking him so soon, and he has NEVER stopped fighting.  Even on his death bed now, he is still fighting.  Still outdoing what the doctors say.  Several months back they told him he had entered stage 4 and it was a matter of months, he kept fighting.  Two weekends ago, they told him he wouldn't make it through the weekend, and a few days later he came home and spent a week with his family.  Sunday, his kidney began to shut down, he is now unable to breathe on his own, and on Monday night, doctors said his life expectancy was down to 24 - 48 hours.  He asked to see his brother who was overseas fighting, and he was able to see him late last night.  Today, he is still fighting.  They know he won't make it home this time, but this show's his faith in God, and how God can reward someone who is so loyal to him. 

My heart aches for my friend because she is losing the one constant she has always had in life.  I know first hand the ugliness of cancer.  Thankfully, I didn't lose my husband to it.  He fought the battle and won.  But it hurts me because I know what the family has gone through watching him sick from the drugs and sick at heart these two long years.  It hurts me that such a good man is going to be taken away from a family that loves him so much.  I told her that she was lucky to have a daddy/mommy in her life for 20 years that was such an amazing person, and that some people had one or both parents an entire lifetime and never experienced a loving environment like her, and that maybe God had other plans for her daddy. What do you tell someone in that situation? Nothing will make them feel better, ya know?

Anyways, I am super glad that is is Thursday.  I hope everyone has a great weekend! 


EDIT* He has gone to be with the LORD.